I have had a hard time surrendering my children to the Lord. It has been based in fear, really. I guess it took me a few years to really believe that God loved them more than I did. It took me a while to really trust God with my children, no matter what. I remember the point of surrender with my kids. I was at Pickwick Lake. I felt overcome with a case of the “What Ifs”. The more I thought about the future, the more fearful I became. I remember praying a desperate cry for help. I got my Bible and prayed, “Lord, I need a word from You. I need a word from You that I can hang onto.” Though I don’t really recommend this method, I simply opened my Bible and the first verse I saw was,
As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
I prayed, “Yes, that is true. God’s word will not return void. And I do pray God’s Word over each of my children. But Lord, I need a word from You that is specific to them. Give me a word for my children.” I flipped a couple of pages and my eyes fell upon the following verse:
“I will contend with those who contend with you, and your children I will save.”
I immediately felt an overwhelming peace flood my soul. The fear fled. The calm returned. I prayed, “Ok, Lord. I believe you. Help me with my unbelief.” And whenever Satan tries to bind me again with fear concerning my children, I let my powerful God “contend” with the enemy, and I simply remember and believe.
A few months after this word from the Lord came to me my family attended a family revival at First Presbyterian Church in Corinth, Mississippi. The speaker offered a time to come to the altar if you wanted to receive Christ as Savior and Lord. All of the sudden my son, Joseph, jumped up and grabbed my hand and began pulling me down the aisle, all the while encouraging his cousin, Rebekah, to go, too. As I made my way down the aisle with my son to pray, very clearly to my mind came the precious words from the Lord: “I will contend with those who contend with you, and your children I will save.”
A couple of years later, we had a little bit of a scare with Joseph. I had to take him to get a cat scan of his brain, because he was experiencing a lot of dizziness. I remember fighting off the “what-ifs” and praying instead, “Lord, I gave him to you a long time ago. I will not take him back now.” That was a difficult prayer to pray. You see, it is very hard to surrender something to the Lord and not pick it back up again. But we must remember that His promises are true. He will contend for us.